HV: Hearing Voices Introduction:
HV: Dramatis Personae
ES--My Entity Self or ES.
Esther--my old dream-producer. Everyone has a being who produces their nightly dreams--and yes--everyone dreams. Some say the dream producer is the soul, which is what I used to believe. But I have a different impression of her now. I call mine Esther , but I experience her as a group--a gestalt of consciousnesses who work together. Or she may be one being with several aspects--just like we are. She was the one who first informed me emphatically, through the most horrible, disgusting and terrifying dreams, that I had a demon on board who had been masquerading as my guide. Some of her productions feel very helpful. Yet others feel ...how should I say..."snarky." I have come to believe that someone in the group does not like me much.
The Sisters--this is a group consciousness as well, and is closely related to Esther, but is higher, more unconditionally loving and positive. She is compassion personified. She lives in a world of white/gold/yellow light, and helps to guide me in my daily life by sending me knowledge of the right thing to do at the right time. She also has shown me, and V some startling realities--like the amazing beauty of truth! One time she also received V--or some level of his consciousness-- into her world, and bathed him in compassion. She is amazingly beautiful and has shown me my own beauty and lovableness as well as well.
HV: THINGS HAVE BEEN EVOLVING 4/22/12
HV: THINGS SHIFTING WITH V 11/20/11
- I KNOW that I am a Divine Being with unlimited power and love.
- I send intense healing white light, shot with pink and blue to the whole earth.
- I put my consciousness as high as I can get it--up into the realm of The Sisters first and then on up even higher into the realm of The Great Mother--My Divine Self.
- From there I send intense white light and love down to myself, down through my crown chakra and down into my heart where it feels like the same kind of love I felt for my babies when they were small--intense loving compassion and nurturance.
- From there I send it out into my arms and down to my hands--which hold my "belly rock."* I project all the loving compassion I feel out throug my hands and into the planet, while thinking the word "HEAL" intensely,
- I see it going into the rock , who acts like a powerful messenger --carrying the energy to the whole planet. I know this because the stone I hold is a fractal of the entire planet and is intimately connected with the whole of her. So anything I send into the rock goes to the entire planet and all of her inhabitants.
- I see the planet completely surrounded by intense white healing light. Then I add shades of pink for compassion and shades of blue for unconditional love.
- I KNOW--without a doubt-- that this works--that this IS healing the planet--because by knowing/allowing anything consistently enough and with enough emotion, we bring it (positive or negative) into reality.
- my spiritual goal or goals
- how to get there
- and how to deal with V
- terrorizing me with nightmares
- telling me to leave behind my way of eating, my way of life, my culture, my reality, my personal desires
- using snarky sarcasm
- setting goals beyond my ability
- being mean spirited
- taking my consciousness out even beyond the dream reality and giving me a vicious dressing down several times
- taking over my consciousness during the day
- and portraying V as anything from a terrifyingly disgusting monster to a very sneaky personality who will never change.
- an incestuous father,
- a weak non-supportive husband,
- an aggressive brother when I was a child (we get along better now--although he still does not value me fully. But he does love me.)
- and many other men who were prejudiced against me because of my gender
- that this column of white light included a divine feminine space at the center that existed in everyone--in both males and females--and in individuals and the collective.
- And that each center had other beings orbiting about it--just like our solar system. These beings were not only the sacred beings that make up my friends and family but also important strangers--people who had a big but brief impact on me for better or for worse (but it all is actually good.)
- And now I know that some of the beings orbiting me are also non-physical beings on various levels and from various types of realities.
- And I am part of their "orbiting solar system of which they are the center. We all have these intermingling gestalts of beings of which we are a part. Some endure for a very long time--others flow and change like clouds in the sky or like the small whirlpools my oars make when I go rowing on the river. They appear and disappear in moments, but for a short while they too are part of the beings that orbit me.
- The center of the Universe is everywhere.
- spiritual growth
- the environment
- it will have electrodes that can attach your body to the computer so that you know what level of brainwave relaxation you are in at the moment. Practiced meditators go down into Theta brain waves to rest and find wisdom. This game will allow a person to know when they have reached that state.
- there will be 3D diagrams of orbits you can fill in with all the important people in your life, and the opportunity to try out different ways that you can relate to them and they with each other.
- there will be diagrams of the Vesica Piscis that can be filled in with all of the elements of whatever conflict a person is inincluding a person's relationship with a disease, or with money etc.
- the player can ascribe avatars to the different people or elements in their life dramas and play out various scenes with the proxies of the real life players.
- they can use the Vesica piscis symbol to help them identify the common ground they have and to predict how people may react if they change in a certain way--like computer chess.
- solutions can be identified and played with.
- there will be other elements that increase the player's psychic ability
- more elements that indicate levels of spiritual development and how to know what level you are functioning on within any time frame--this moment, this hour, this day, week month, year, era.
- or at can be applied to all of human history.
- it will be used to help people to access past lives and to identify the lessons to be learned from that life and this one. (Imagine yourself as a Massai warrior facing a hungry lion--one of my past lives. It could be very exciting as a virtual reality game.)
- there will be elements that allow the player to access their "between life Life"--where they selected (with the help of their guides) the main life issues they would challenge themselves with in this lifetime--or any other.
- there will be other aspects of the game where you can go back into your past, find a major choice point that led to an unhappy outcome, change it, and play out a new choice. (This actually can be done and the changes made in the past then lead to a new present. It is called repatterning by Denise Linn. Past Lives Present Dreams.)
copyright Brenda H. Nelson 2011
- my mother
- my daughter
- my daughter-in-law
- Esther (or at east one of her aspects)
- She is learning how to allow everything.
- She is learning that she really does create her own reality-
- She is ever increasingly cognizant of the fact that everyone does the same.
- She allows that no-one is to blame.
- She is learning that we all live in a sea of well-being.
- She is beginning to really feel the design of Divine Copaceticness that weaves a State of Grace around all of us--every being in the Universe.
- And finally, she is coming to understand that... “There is nothing to overcome. Don’t fight anything. It’s just a party!”
- First Seth (22 yr. old neighbor /friend) came over and invited me to go look at rocks in the woods. It felt right, so I went.
- Then the book I am reading (People of the Wolf) described “Dreamers” or shamans as needing to be alone--isolated--in order to fulfill their destiny. I agree with this, but is this a sign pointing towards Esther’s way?
- Then V prompted me to look in the encyclopedia (vortex? “encyclone-pedia” lol) for the word “Pleistocene” to see what time period the book was set in, as the males seemed hostile and dominant towards women. My anthropological studies say that the period was matrisitc (female led) and peaceful. (Pleistocene era 3 million to 10,000 years ago.) BUT, the important thing about looking in the encyclopedia was that right above the listing for the Pleistocene era a listing for the Pleides. This is the home base of my new guides, The Sisters. I’ll explain this more below.*
- Finally, as I opened my e-mail I discovered the inspirational quote below--I get a few of these daily e-mails but almost never open any. But tonight I opened this one:
- something to do with being a “messenger?” -- like perhaps being a channel for a being with higher wisdom?
- Or it might have something to do with helping children. (I used to be the director of a large Montessori day care center.)
- Or perhaps it will be founding retreat centers for women and children.
- Or maybe it will just be writing books and stories about what I have learned spiritually in this lifetime (and others).